My nervous heart fluttered as we sat together on the warm verandah together and alone. All other siblings were off buying KFC and somehow we weren’t.
For the past 12 months God had been speaking to us in whispers that one day we would get married, and though we’d not discussed it, we both knew that the other knew.
I was only 15 and he was 24.
Somehow it came out, sitting there on the verandah, and yet I wondered whether it should have?
And later, as we recounted our verbal steps, I think it shouldn’t have. He said God had told him to wait till I was 16, but he blurted.
Photography by Suzanne Rowe
And I think we all make mistakes speaking, more so than hearing from God. God plants a seed in our hearts and we’re so excited we start peeking in through the dirt to see if it’s growing and disturbing the roots of what He’s doing.
Like a pregnancy that bursts into labour too soon. Sure the baby may survive, but on life support.
It wasn’t a drastic mistake, but its one that we made over and over, pushing too soon. Growth takes time.
But God can redeem such peeking and prodding. We learn to be guided by His peace better and if we’re uneasy about something to press the pause button and pray until we can put the finger on the why and the change the plans.
There’s been other occasions where we’ve moved and done something, and it didn’t go to plan whatsoever. Moved house and town and the business plan and partnership fallen apart on the last trailer load of furniture over those mountains.
My husband says sometimes its easier to steer a ship that’s already moving than to shove one off the port and God uses things that we want to move us in the direction He wants.
But you’re never a lost soul when God’s got your GPS (God Positioning Co-Ordinates). There’s more than one way to the destiny, it’s just a matter of recalculating, because I didn’t see that turn off coming up and the exit on the round about wasn’t marked like I thought. It’s about the journey not the destination; but trying not to take 40 years because of the attitude.
And in the throes of making a mistake hearing from God, I read from a man who learnt from his hearing mistakes, YWAM founder Loren Cunningham, and the title says it all. “Is That Really You God?”
Hearing from God about marriage, missions, money, parenting and falling flat on his face, but pressing on closer to hear better.
Writing in response to the Five Minute Friday prompt: SPEAK